Let's have a chat

I do not think there is nothing more fearful than someone asking you to have a talk, privately. It makes everything in the room to have so much tension that we can cut with a knife. So to prevent the large amount of tension in ourselves, I decided to ask you to have a chat with me. Even though I will be typing without your answers, I still want someone to talk to. Someone to listen to me.

Before I go on, the next paragraph is personal. If you want to listen, listen. If not skip down to the paragraph after it because it is personal, it is my life.

Ok, so I live in a jacked up life, if you cannot tell by my tone of voice as I speak throughout this blog. Even though I do not want to admit that my life is flawed, I still have those emotional breakdowns that happen way too much and should not happen to anyone. I would hate to believe that you actually go through emotional breakdowns. So, here I go. I have divorced parents. That is not my problem. Certain children in my life give me sadness, instead of joy as many people want them to. She is posed and thinks that she is sly and cunning and thinks that she holds the cards of the "game" she plays. She is superficial, and I dislike her greatly because I believe that my childhood was different in a way. I grew up in a pure world where all I had to worry about was to not sit on my grandmother's flower beds while she worries about how to get revenge on me. I did nothing wrong. She puts words down my throat and overreacts to everything I do not do. I hate that. Also, my mother has false hope. No matter how much she tries, she does not get what she needs, which makes me upset because I want her to get what she needs. My mother keeps trying to the point where I lost hope. I want out. I need to leave, but I cannot. If you were in my mindset, you would understand. Hopefully, though, you do.

Ok, that is enough of me.

Now, I want to talk about fear, respect, and believe. Those three words are so different from each other, but like love, infatuation, and lust, they tend to get mixed up with each other. Fear is used to make people do something because they are scared of the consequences of not doing it. Respect is used to make people do something, but they do not believe in the reason, but love the idea of it because of a person, thing, whatever. Believe is used to make people do something because they geniunely want to do it, through it all, from the consequences to the reasons, everything. However, it is a sad thing when people mix up fear for respect, fear for believe, and respect for believe. Do what you want to do because you are the one who will get affected by it. Not anyone else.

Also, do not worry about the future so much. If you try your best everyday, you will be prepared for the future. Do what you have to do in order to make the most out of your day. I used to worry about the future too much, and it gave me anxiety. But now, I tend to live in the moment more. So, do not worry about the future, try your best, and live in the moment because I think you will be happier.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

P.S. Sorry for three posts update. I have too many things on my mind today, and I need to let them all out. Forgive me.