Call me crazy, but I believe in fate. Everything happens for a reason, whether it be good or bad. There is a reason why I meet people who I begin to love and then do not love any more. There is a reason why I meet people who I just love unconditionally. I learn things. I believe in miracles even though natural laws and deism tells me not so.
Important lessons literature has taught me include nothing lasts forever, time will heal all wounds, love should not hurt, etc. Even though they may seem just words on a piece of paper, wisdom and full of thought are written just for you on the page. They want us to read the downfalls of the characters so that we may learn from others mistakes, but we have to make our own in the process. Everyone grows up at different times, different rates, different ways. I just somehow grew up mentally faster than my past friends, therefore saw them as inexperienced. They got bored of me. I was tired of seeing them get hurt, so I left. It is fine to be mature for your age, but we have to grow in order to be full person.
My family always told me that I was their busy bee to their pretty flower. Even though I am not perfect, I am still distinguished. I am here.
There is a difference between existing and living. If we are living, we are living they way we want to, the way we seize the day, the way we take control over how fast time goes by for us. Existing just means that you are letting the day seize you. Take control over your life and live the way you want to.
I never fell in love before. I do love people, but I have never fell in love before until my heart takes over my brain. That never happened, no matter how many people I met. I tried to make myself fall in love with them, but I could not. It just would not be fair to anyone if I did.
Planning things out has not been good to me. I prefer to just go with the flow. That is all I want. All I want is to get married, have children, live with my husband/best friend, live near water, and be happy. That is all I want.
Happiness is a huge deal for me. If someone tries to ruin my day, I will hurt them. Let me have a good day. Let others have a good day.
Only time will tell. We cannot predict everything.
With love,
Violet Sar Bleu
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