Catching Fire

I watched Catching Fire last night, and liked it, as most people did.

It got me thinking about which terrain I will most likely to survive in if I ever get reaped into the Hunger Games, and I think that I will most likely to survive in an abandoned city.

Yeah, no more snicker doodles before bed for me.

New Found Love

To be honest with you, I never liked the Abercrombie and Fitch companies, along with their sister and brother brands. I just did not like my shirt having a logo plastered on the chest. However, once my stubborn mind finally looked pass the logo-plastered graphic tops and the scandalous advertisements and the fact that they have a shirtless man in front of the store (which made me want to go away from the store, since I felt uncomfortable), I found things I like in there. For one, I love Hollister jeans. I have small hips and a small butt and Hollister jeans are perfect for that. I used to be a fan of American Eagle jeans, but the jeans tended to be a bit short on me and the backsides tend to be a bit wide. Aeropostale jeans are too wide on the hips and waist and just overall too baggy on the legs; those jeans just do not work on me. Abercrombie and Fitch flannels are the best. Yes, they are a bit overpriced, but the softness and chose of colors and the fit is amazing. I love both men and women flannels. Gilly Hicks bralettes are amazing. I have a small chest, and some bralettes drown me.
However, I do not agree with their CEO, that arrogant twat. Anyway, I just like their flannels, bralettes, and jeans.

Letter to a Friend

Dear Friend,

Even though I know that capitalizing the word "friend" is incorrect,  I think a friend is more important than anything else, though people argue that family is most important. I refute that idea, more or less because I hate it. Friends are people you can choose to have in your life, and family are people you are forced to have in your life. However, I digress.

The reason I chose to write to you is because I hope that you would listen, that you will at least attempt to understand what I am trying to understand. The world needs to make more attempts, even if that attempt will fail by the word of fate. Attempts show care and support for that person. To me, that is the best affectionate expression in the world.

I always hated characters like Anse Bundren, selfish, guilt tripping, unsympathetic, pretty much the worst character alive. I know that is harsh to say, but the purpose behind Faulkner's characterization of Anse Bundren makes me sick. I noticed why I hate him so much. It is because there are people in my life who resemble him.

I dislike that I cannot put a name for you; it seems a bit rude. I apologize for putting you as anonymous for it resembles the quality of invisible.

With love,

Me.

Time Out

I do not like the idea of someone giving up on me, and I will not give up on myself, which includes to continue to write out my thoughts, no matter how painful it was. To be honest, I hate to write out my thoughts, because those thoughts run through my mind a million times per minute (that was over exaggerating, but you get the idea).

I decided to give myself a little break, not from you, but from myself. Even though I like to be alone most of my time, time alone is dangerous for me when there is too much of it. I think too much, look into things too much. Everyone's thoughts are dangerous.

I begin to fear oblivion, not being cared for, not being significant to the human race, nonetheless the universe.

I do not like the idea of time because I do not like the idea of losing time.

Lots of love.

Being Ignored

One of the worst feelings in the world is neglect or being ignored because we feel as though we are not worth time, thoughts, or anything else.

I hate being ignored, especially by the ones I care about.
I hate caring for someone who does not care for me.
I just hate caring for someone ignoring me.

My Schedule for my Week

I tend to bite off more than I can chew, and it is apparent this week.

Monday- Hieroglyphics Picture
Tuesday- US History Test, Human Geography Test, Computer Science Test
Wednesday- Art History, Lab
Thursday- Vocabulary Quiz, Spanish National Honor Society, Habitat for Humanity
Friday- Drivers Test

I hope you are relaxed more than me.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

To someone I miss

You know who you are, and I do not need to explain anything to you, except I miss you.

You are in a whole new world, whole new life, while I am still in the same old world, same old life. By now, you probably do not care about me or have time for me, which is fine because I miss you, but do not have time for you. If it were up to me, we will hang out everyday together, but not every moment because I get tired out easily, or I will not miss you the way I do.

Please do not think of me as a nuisance, an annoying pest, since I just want to see you, to see how you have grown, to see you how you are, happy or sad or angry. I guess life just gets in the way, but I wished it didn't.

I really hope to see you soon.

With love,
And always,

Violet Sar Bleu

Enough is Enough

I never had a great relationship, or civil by that matter, with my father. I never liked him as a kid or do I now. You are probably thinking I have worse things going in my life than you. It may be true, but it does not always mean that I do not have a reason.

I get jealous when people talk proudly of their father because I want to like him, but I cannot get myself to after the emotional damage he has put on me. However, I am lucky. I have another person in my life that is a better father than him.

One day, he called me stupid. You may think that is no big deal, but when someone calls a person stupid over and over again and tells people that they think that person is stupid, enough is enough. I have enough of my father.

You may be going through worse things than I am, or hopefully, better things than I am. In the end, I want you to be happy, always.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Boy vs Girl

In some cultures, it is better to have a boy than girl. Why? Other than the fact that you will have a boy to carry on your name, I see no advantage to having either gender of baby. And if the woman does not produce a female, she will get punished even if it is actually the male's fault. Do not believe me? Look up the x and y chromosomes and bride burning.

My views on Nationalism and Racism

Before I begin, I just want to put a disclaimer out there that I am not racist, and I do not hate patriotism.

People are so obnoxious, especially when it comes to pride of its own country. I get it. You think the United States of America is the best country in the world. Just stop, it is annoying. I see all over television with sports, life insurance commercials, etc. Love for one's country is one thing, being arrogant about one's country is another.

I know that racism is wrong, but I do not understand why certain people get so riled up when someone calls another person a derogatory term. For example, people can laugh at other people telling Asians that they speak like "Ching Chong," and they can laugh at other people telling Caucasians "cracker," but once you insult an African American, all of hell break loose. Why is it so? Also, when people speak of those terms, why do they bring up, "my ancestors went through slavery." It is not like Asians bring up the bombing of Nagaski and Hiroshima or the Cambodian genocide when they get insulted. Or even with Caucasians talking about the persecutions of being in a certain religion, i.e. Protestant persecution by Queen Mary. I digress. Usually, immature people take it to heart, not all people. I apologize if I generalized too much. Many people are not like this, thank you. My last question for you is why a white man killing a black man gets more criticism than a black man killing a white man? Or is it just me?

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Weird Kitchen Dishes

Hopefully, I am not the only person that likes to cook weird things when they are bored, let me tell you my weird contraption.

Oatmeal Cake

Materials: Bowls, Measurement devices, Microwave or Conventional oven, Water, Oatmeal, Sugar, Cream Cheese, Sour Cream, Cinnamon, Sugar

Step 1: Mix 1/2 cup of oatmeal, 1/8 teaspoon of cinnamon, and 1/2 tablespoon of sugar in one bowl

Step 2: Cream two tablespoons of cream cheese, two tablespoons of sour cream, 1/8 teaspoon of milk, and 1/2 tablespoon of sugar until smooth with no lumps in the presenting dish.

Step 3: Gradually add in the spiced oatmeal into the cream cheese and sour cream mixture until all is well blended

Step 4: Patt the mixture until well packed at the bottom of the presenting

Step 5: Make on small bowl of oatmeal

Step 6: Pack the plain oatmeal on top

Step 7: Cream two tablespoons, two tablespoons of sour cream, and 1/2 tablespoons until smooth

Step 8: Microwave the bowl without the frosting

Step 9: Add frosting on top and enjoy

Share my your weird kitchen dishes

Terry Prachett: Choosing to Die

In the documentary Terry Prachett: Choosing to Die, a fantasy author, Terry Prachett, thinks about assisted suicide. Many people are against assisted suicide because they believe that it is not the way to die. He visits two men, Andrew and Peter, who do die and die in Dignitas. The reason behind Terry Prachett may want to die is because of the idea of pain when thinking about his Alzheimer's. Everyone should live happily and die happily.

The film is upsetting because the viewer knows that both men die and die out of chose. I tell you about this film is because I believe that if someone goes through immense pain and torture, he or she should be allowed to make the chose to die to end the amount of pain.

I know that many people are against it, and I know that the film is biased towards assisted suicide or euthanasia. However, please consider it nonetheless and watch the film if you choose to.

Best wishes to you, and I want you to live a happy life.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Am I happy?

One of the many questions people ask me in real life is " are you happy?" I tend to say whatever is on my head, regret it, and try to move pass from it because I want to be happy. Growing up, you can call me a basket case. I had trust issues, did not want anything to do with some people, and left any situation that I did not want to be a part of. A large part of me is still like that.

No, I am not happy. I am lonely even though I see people everyday. I need to fix this part of myself because I do not like to be a lone wolf.

Neglect and reject. I hate those two words.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Thoughts on Christianity

I am not a religious person, nor do I believe I ever was because I question way too often. Many of you will argue to me about this thought, since it is very controversial, but hear me out.

The concept of hell. I never understood the idea of hell because in Christianity, hell is a literal place. People are tortured for eternity, forever because they are a sinner and do not confess, have never heard or believe Christianity. People who have never heard of the story of Jesus Christ are tortured forever, including babies and people in other countries. People who are naive are tortured forever. Also, some of the things people get condemned for are natural, such as jealousy and greediness. How can someone allow people be tortured forever? At least on Earth, if someone gets tortured, there is an end to it.

The concept of fear. If you believe in something out of fear, it is not genuine. I do not get why people put themselves in this position for fear if they do not have too.

I think those two points have always been making me question. I should not question.
I should believe, but I do.

Best of wishes.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Why I am starting to dislike a part of YouTube

I cannot write off the whole website because there are channels where there are thoughtful and intelligent, and I like the thought that people can get entertainment directly from the creator. However, I dislike many things about the website, mainly of the idea of money, content, and certain other things.

1. People create things for the thought of fame.
You see those comments on your favorite YouTube websites that say "check out my channel" and "help a person with a dream," and I dislike those comments greatly because a person uses another person's audience to get his or her own audience. Why take someone else's hard work in order to make your work load lighter?

2. The idea that you have to be a certain way or your content have to be a certain way
Apparently, on YouTube, you have to be witty. You have to be smart, funny, charming, etc. I say bull crap to that, and YouTube should be a place where you can share whatever you want to share and have people interact with you, not criticizing you, yourself. YouTube is for everyone, not just for a specific personality.

3. Big Youtubers help big Youtubers
Why help someone when they are better off? Seriously. Why not they help smaller youtubers in order to share their ideas? I do not get it.

4. The idea that it is an industry
People start on YouTube at first for the fact that they were bored. Now, everyone wants more subscribers. The more subscribers you have does not mean the more rich is your content. The quality of the content relies on the opinion on the viewer.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Without Money We'd All Be Rich

To be honest with you, I hate talking about money because it bores me and stresses me about something that is not important to me. I know that money is used to pat back objects, services, etc., but people have become so greedy and infatuated with it to the point where'd I want to pull my hair out.

Yes, I do believe that without money we'd all be rich. Everyone will be equal. Social classes will not matter, and everyone will pursue whatever they want to.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

School Started

Today was the first day of my junior year for me, and I am in a weird mindset because of all of the odd classes I am taking such as Art History, Biology II, English III, Human Geography, Pyschology, etc.

Hopefully, I will blend in my classes pretty soon, since I feel like an odd ball out and a loner.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Disturbing things

I apologize for being inconsistent. Yes, I know that I have not written in a while, but I want to give you a reason why behind my apology.

My life, like yours, is inconsistent. I got sick, and had to reminded myself of who is my friend and who is not, which in turn, made me become distant. Other than this blog, I have not been in touch with a social media network (well, except YouTube).

I have other problems too, but I do not want to say just for the sake that I want you to have happy thoughts and not pondering about others. Think happily, for me.

Yes, I know this post is choppy, but when my thoughts run a mile a minute, I cannot help it.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

I woke up with a bad mood

Today, I woke up with a bad mood, and everything is annoying me right now. I do not know why. I have not been irritable in a long time. I need to fix it.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Those nights

I have those nights where I end up eating peanut butter out of the jar for dinner then I have a handful of blueberries and call it a night. Yes, those nights.

I have those days where I forget to eat dinner and end up hungry for the rest of the night. Yes, those days.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

I am so lonely

Before I begin, I would like to put a disclaimer out there. I know there are people in worse conditions than I am and that I live a privileged life. It is a blessing to be able to wake up and know that there will be food on the table, love from my cousin, sister, mother, and grandma, and that I will be fine in the end, no matter the injury, sickness, or heartbreak. However, like most people in our lives, I find myself a bit unsatisfied.

I have talked about my father before, and I believe that I made you listen to my rants about him far too often. I will not make you listen to them because they are horrendous. Don't you worry.

I have talked about my sister before, and I made you listen to my adoration and confusion for her far too often. I hope you have a best friend like mine because then life will be too unfair. You deserve to be happy.

I have talked about my loving and strict mother before, and I made you listen to my misunderstanding of her far too often. I hope you have someone to care for you because you take care of someone, but someone needs to take care of you. You deserve the best.

I do not remember talking about my grandma, and I need to tell you how wonderful she is. I want you to meet her one day. See you in due time.

Even though I have wonderful people in my life, I feel lonely and empty. For that I feel horrible because I have enough. I hope you have more than enough love to go around.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Apples to Apples, Honesty to Honesty

If you treat people right, people might not treat you right back, but you have the satisfaction of knowing that you treat people with respect. The satisfaction may be minuscule or significant, depending on how you are, not saying you are a bad person. Some people get satisfied by gifts, words of affirmation, acts of service, or touch. It really depends on how we are, and we cannot always expect that we will have full happiness. But, I want nothing but happiness for you.

Be honest, because the afternath of a lie will harm much more. Some people do not want to know the harsh truth. We need to tell them still. You will not always be happy in your life. But, we need the sky to be dark in order for the stars to light up the sky.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Always Again USA and Brandy Melville USA

I am a lazy shopper and do not like to look for the right size. It takes time, and that is the reason why I enjoy shopping at Brandy Melville and Always Again. We just have to be smart about what we buy, so I decided to give you a guide on Brandy Melville and Always Again.

At Brandy Melville, everything is one size fits most except for certain items such as her denim shorts and some of her pants. Her tank tops, mostly the graphic ones, do stay true to one size fits most. I have seen thin girls rock them along with curvier girls. Her short sleeve crop shirts are similar to the  baby tees back in the 90s, but they fit well and only work on certain body types. I have seen look unflattering on both thin and curvy girls, so it really comes down to how it looks on you. Her dresses are on the shorter side, along with some of the skirts. Luma skirts are on the shorter side while the Heather skirt are on the longer side. Sweaters are oversized, so a lot of people do fit into them. Maxi skirts are glorious, along with pants with elastic, since they do fit and flatter both thin and curvy girls.

Always Again has sizes on their crop tanks and crop tee shirts, but her muscle tanks do not have the regular small, medium, and large. The muscle tanks are one size fits most and one size fits bigger than most. So, if you are a thin girl to average, I recommend the one size fits most, but if you are on the curvier side, I recommend the one size fits bigger than mosts. Also, I like the idea of the option cropped and super cropped.

Always Again is an online store at alwaysagainusa.com while Brandy Melville has locations in Europe, California, and New York, it also has an online site at brandymelvilleusa.com.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Growing Pains

I miss my friend. I do not know why. I know how we drifted apart and it is my fault, entirely. I pushed that person away because that person came too close too soon. I miss my friend to the moon and back.

I had a root canal today. To be honest, the only that harmed me was when the x-ray that was rooked after.

What Sucks

My friend who I trusted through and through has not talked to me. He will not talk to me and forgot my birthday as well. It sucks. I am sorry that we had a misunderstanding. I am sorry that I am not the girl that you "knew was the one" by looking at her. I am sorry that I was mad at you for months, with you not knowing the reason why.

I am heartbroken that I lost my real first friend that felt comfortable enough to contact me at two in the morning to see if I came home from the party and if I was safe. I miss him so much as my friend.

Movie recommendation: Silver Road, short film, can be accessed through YouTube

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

I am Stupid

I have this friend, and yes, he is a guy, and yes, I care for him platonically. The relationship between he and me is complicated. It started out complicated, went through with complications, and still is complicated. However, we are on good terms, well in my point of view.

I just want him to talk to me. He is not talking to me, which makes me frustrated.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Happy Birthday to Me and Amy and Andy Irons

Today is my sixteenth birthday, and I woke up to the munchkins, Amy and Stephanie, sitting on Amy's bed waiting for me to wake up. I woke up at 10:30, which typically is too early for me. Gummy Bears that were bought from last night are on my dresser, and I received a lovely tank top from Stephanie. So far my day has been uneventful, but calm and simple. I am not dragged to a party I do not want to go. I am not forced to wear something nice. My day has been normal, except for the fact that I turned sixteen.

Today is Andy Iron's birthday. I wish him to a nice day, even if he is not considered alive anymore, but he is alive to me. He is forever young. Love you <3.

Happy birthday, Amy. Love you to the moon and back and back again <3.


With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Today

Today, technically yesterday, is the first day that I have experienced a great lost of trust and security. People keep texting me that they are sorry. I literally packed my things and was ready to head out, but my grandmother stopped. I rather not say anymore because I know I will regret it.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

I have a knack for embarrassing myself.

Yesterday, I went driving with my mother, and I got mad. I rather not say anything about it.

During the time we went, we decided to get some boba or bubble tea. Let's just say I did not noticed what I was wearing until I went out. I was wearing a baggy t-shirt and a pair of white sleep shorts with red polka dots. I am surprised they served me. Thank goodness, the guy was very nice, and gave me my green tea with grass jelly.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Wisdom Teeth

Wisdom teeth extraction is probably the most painful thing to endure, afterwards. I want to tell you what they did to me during the procedure.

When I got my wisdom teeth taken out, my dentist did not use gas on me. Instead, he used the needle annethesia. I am not going to lie to you, but the first injection was such a harsh and sharp pain. But the other two after were not as bad because of the already numbness inside the back of my teeth. During the operation, I was awake and blindfolded and did feel a thing. Then after all of the clacking and banging stopped, my blindfold was removed as they placed stitches on my mouth. I felt some pain with gauzes in my mouth. I was fourteen, and the pressure was too much.

I took my pain killers, which were too strong, and knocked me out. I slept for most of the day. Blood was dribbling down my mouth, and I got blood all over my pillow.

I healed quickly, and please do not try to eat chips after the operation. I did, and it hurt. The pain went away after a day or two, but still felt sore in my jaw for a while.

With love,
Violet Sar Bleu

Red Nail Polish

Whenever people ask me what I feel most comfortable wearing, I usually do not have an immediate answer because I believe people should be confident in his or her skin, bare and raw. However, I guess I never realized, until now, the reason behind the confidence behind a certain article of clothing or a certain wear of makeup. The person feels confident in that certain article of clothing because either he or she knows that he or she looks good or because that article holds a certain nostalgic meaning. Ever since I was younger, I feel most confident when I am wearing red nail polish. I never noticed it before, until someone pointed it out. Red nail polish is the first nail polish I have ever seen my mother wore and my aunt wore. It is the first color that I have ever painted on my nails at the meager age of 6. Sounds stupid, as usual.

I dislike the idea that depression is a side effect of cancer. In my opinion, depression is not a side effect of cancer. It is the side effect of dying. Even though some animals can detect mortality and/or feel sad when their offsprings die, I think humans have this weird quality. The thought of animals committing suicide lingers in my mind, and I apologize for the sad idea. It makes me wonder if they do commit suicide, not just willingly hurt themselves, or if they do feel depressed or of they do have a psychological condition of depression when they are ill or dying.

I also dislike the saying "it gets better." People say this phrase for bullying and unhappiness. Even though everything must come to an end, another must start. There will always be bullying in the world, but as a person, you get stronger for it. It never ends. It happens in adulthood, childhood, and in the elderly. It doesn't get. You get better.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Anti-Acne Treatments

As a teenage girl, I have problems with acne, and it tends to get on my nerves. So, when I just have nothing to do, I try out "home remedies", so I want to tell you what home remedies and homemade masks that actually work.

1. Cinnamon and honey mask
To make the masks, put three tablespoons of the type of honey of your choice (I like wallflower) in a microwave bowl/cup of your choice. Next, put in one tablespoon of cinnamon in, and mix. It should be thick and weird looking. After that, put the mixture in the microwave for ten seconds. The texture after heating should be less thick. Apply onto the face, and wait 5-10 minutes and rinse off.
I do not recommend this mask to sensitive skin because the cinnamon might be too abrasive. You can use it everyday, but no more than once a day. I use it a couple times a week.

2. Cinnamon, honey, olive oil, and sea salt mask
To make the mask, place one tablespoon of olive oil, two tablespoons of honey, and two teaspoons of cinnamon inside a microwable bowl/cup. The texture should be close to syrup. Next put it for five seconds in the microwave. Next, put in the sea salt in and stir. The texture should be in between water and syrup and gritty. Apply onto face for five minutes and rinse off. When you rinse it off, the seasalt will exfoliate your skin.
If you have sensitive skin, I recommend using fine salt or not adding salt at all. Depending how big the sea salt chunks you put in, the harsher the exfoliation. I recommend using it once a week.

3. Toothpaste
Dab onto any zit on your pimple, leave overnight. It dries out the zit and reduces the appearence.

4. Egg mask
Separate the whites from the the yolk. Whip up the whites and dab the foam onto your face. When you feel like you cannot move your face, rinse off. It gets rid of excess oil and brighten ups the skin. For the yolks, puncture the yolk, and apply onto face. When you cannot move your face, rinse off. It provides moisture to the face.

5. Eye drops
Apply eye drops to any red blemish or redness to any spot. It reduces the redness.

6. Coffee, berry, and avocado mask.
Mash up a half of an avocado, mash up a cup of your choice of berries (I like raspberries and blueberries), and mix it with two tablespoon of coffee (cold is better) and a tablespoon of coffee grinds. Apply to face and rinse off after 5-10 minutes. It is perfect for dry, irritated, and inflamed skin. Great for winter.

These are all of my home remedies that I know work well. Take care :).

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

I'm so glad to see you

Even though missing people seems torturous, seeing that certain person or those certain people makes you feel oh-so warm and fuzzy. I was so glad to hear from a person, since I have not seen them or hear from them in a long time.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Affect vs Effect; Who vs Whom

This most complicated things in life tend to be the easiest to understand, but the least complicated things in life tend to be the most difficult to understand. I do not know why, and I do not know how, but it is true.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Liars

As the saying goes "it takes one to know one." I cannot agree more because its true. From liars to cheaters to hypocrites, it really does take a knowledge of a person, no matter how miniscule or expansive, to know who is who.

Many people believe that this is not true, which I understand because I can be wrong.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Experience

Yesterday, I decided to go a water park. Although I am not a big fan of rides, crowded areas, or chlorinated water, I went because of funnel cakes, sun, and the ability to wear my bikini somewhere else other than the beach. Now, I am here, typing with my legs aching and a nice tan on my legs. I did not expecting anything, but a guy, outside of the bathroom as I was waiting for my sister, looking at me, straight at me. Now, by this time, I was not in my swimwear, but changed out into a comfortable loose muscle tee and sweat shorts. However, at first, I thought there was a girl behind me, but there was not. As I walked away, he still stared at me. Either this guy is a creeper or something else. The way he looked at me was not in a creeper or confused way. He just stared into my eyes. I do not understand why though.

I am confused.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

P.S. I (sorta) Love You

I guess you can say that I am confrontal when it comes to people insulting me. Usually, I like to avoid trouble at the best of my ability, but when it comes to what I believe and what I feel, I get a bit arrogant. I never mean to do it and just so happens. Call me a jerk.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Eating at Freddy's

Today, my family decided to go to the waterpark, which ended up me being cold during the beginnning and sunbathing at the end of it. After we spent time at the waterpark, we decided to go to Freddy's, which is a restaurant known for frozen custard and steak burgers, yum :).

I never been in there before and decided to order something other than the orignal because my sister and father and uncle took that order, so I wanted some variety. I ordered the California style burger, which I thought was normal and just had something else cold in it, but I was wrong. It had peanut butter in it or some nutty sauce in it. Let's just say, it tasted good.

There is no point to this post, other than I wanted you to know about my day, that's all.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Patience

Growing up, I never had a problem learning patience because I already had it. I also did not have a problem of growing patience. It was just a quality that I have always had as a person and still have, which I am proud of.

However, it is also one of major flaws. Even though it is a good quality to have patience to waiting in line for a couple of minutes or waiting for someone who is running late, I tend to be lenient towards people. For instance, my friend told me he would drive me around for 30 minutes and will pick me up around 3:00 pm. He did not even come until around 4:30 pm, which to some people seems a bit unneeded, but I was fine with it.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

What I Believe

In my opinion, some people go into a relationship because they are bored, lonely, or heartbroken. I think those are fine reasons to go into one, but not the best ones because I believe that we need to be whole and fixed before we go into a relationship.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

In a rut

I do not know about you, but I feel like everyone's life is growing and developing while my life is just existing and passing and not doing anything. Maybe it is the fever talking or the fact that I have been spending way too much time with myself because undoubted, I do.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Fevers suck

I am under the weather, which I know is not an excuse for the nonchalant posts. Forgive me.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Stickler for the rules

As a person now and before, I was never a stickler for anything too objective. I never liked anything too black and white. A yes or no question is difficult for me, and lately, I have been answering with maybe.

Rules, to me, were meant to bended, were meant to be challenged.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Slow Down

I was never the most romantic person on the planet. Heck, the first I was asked out on a date, I thought was a joke. But, do not worry, that guy remains one of best friends today, no hard feelings whatsoever when I said no. I remembered asking him if he was going to homecoming or not, just to see the people in that scene. He answered to me that he was not going to be his date because I said no to him last time and that it was his turn, playfully of course. We are like siblings and keep things completely platonic.

I never liked when a relationship goes to quickly. To me, I do not think that should ever happen.

I just wanted to tell you that, nothing more.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

While I am under the weather...

Feeling sick is awful, but it gives me an excuse to indulge into eating my favorite foods. I wanted to share to you some of my favorites and see what are yours.

1. Blood Orange Soda
I am not a big fan of carbonated drinks, but blood orange soda is my favorite thing to drink, especially while I am sick. Even though orange juice is a well known helper while people are sick, I prefer blood orange because it tends to be less sweet and has a more citrus taste to it. Also, the carbonation in the drink keeps my stomach in check.

2. Coffee
I guess this drink is not a total surprise. To me, it is much better than tea and makes me feel better while I am sick, especially if I have been feeling cold.

3. Bitter Melon
Bitter melon is very bitter, but I like it that way, since it tastes so amazing and yummy. Unlike most foods, bitter melon does not make me feel nauseous and keeps me full, not heavy.

4. Teddy Graham Crackers
I love the taste of graham crackers, but the teddy bear shape, the bite size, and the different flavors makes it all more enjoyable.

5. Blueberries
I love blueberries and tend to eat a lot of them whenever I am sick.

These are my favorite foods wen I am sick because they do not make feel sick. Most of the foods I do not like, such as chicken, kale, mushrooms, and olives, tend to get the best of me when I am sick and make feel nauseous.  Also, many starchy foods like pasta, bread, potato and others make me feel nauseous, and I tend to avoid them.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Rough Times

I apologize for not keeping contact with you because that is selfish of me, but I am going through rough patches right now that I hope that I have the strength to go over. You may believe this post is going to be in terms of family problems, but surprisingly, it is not. This post is about my health, my situation, and my life. Overly narcisstic, I apologize once again.

Apparently, the people who did my braces ended up making me have a bump inside my gums. Now, many people will think nothing of it, including me, but according to my new dentist and mother, the bump in my gums is traumatic. It is either a viral or bacterial or just deformation in my gums. I did not noticed it, until now, which makes me afraid because I want to be fine. I do not want to be ill, but I am also running a fever. The denistry office believes the cause of my fever is the bump in my gums, and the bump can also be the cause of my hallucinations of sparkingly tear drops whenever I think I had too much sun. I did not know I am running a fever, until everyone at the office told me I am excessively warm and too warm. I just want to be healthy.

Another thing that is not my fault is the misconception that I did not turn in my Spanish book, which I did, but my school believes that I did not, which makes me upset.

Hopefully, your life is great because that is all I hope for right now.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Voices

In my opinion, people should express their own thoughts in a rational manner, meaning we should not jump the gun on trying to end something whether it be a TV show, radio show, or fashion trend. The reason why we should end something is because someone else's feelings might get hurt. It may be one or two or hundreds, but we have to sympathetic.

ABC family is known for having risque shows, and their newest show, The Fosters, showcase a lesbian couple who house foster children. I love the show and the characters, who are very lovable and realistic. However, because of certain beliefs, many people dislike the idea of it and have to speak against it because it is in the name of their religion. Family takes a different name nowadays. It no longer needs a mother, father, and biological children, but for some reason, many people believe it as so. For instance, another popular show, Friends, portray the idea of family within 6 friends. Even though their idea of family is not the classic, cookie-cutter idea, I still believe time has changed. There is nothing wrong with the idea of a lesbian couple with foster children and a biological child because in the end, it should not matter who is in the family, but the way that family is portrayed. Sure, the kids may not have a mom and a dad, but they have guardians that love them and support them and that is all that should matter.

However, no one should hate a show because of certain characters because it is like someone hating us because we are teenagers. The idea of family is changing, and we just have to accept that.

With love,
Violet Sar Bleu

P.S. I looked up reviews of The Fosters, and the show recieved postive reviews. However, I will not share the reviews because it is easily recieved on the Internet. But, I will show you some of other people's thoughts.

http://onemillionmoms.com/issues/abc-continues-to-produce-anti-family-programs/- I cannot stand their argument. Really, using Christianity as an argument. I apologize, but your argument is invalid, since some people are not Christians, including my sister.

Random Things

Yesterday, before I went to bed, my sister told me what my mother thinks of what I wear. Now, I knew I was not going to get a positive response, since my mom has been criticizing me what I wear ever since I got to dress myself. However, I was not expecting to get the response of my mom thinking that I dress like a hobo. When she told me that, I could not help but laugh. My mom thinks I dress like a hobo :).

Scary Things

I am scared of a lot of things, most of them are irrational and do not make sense. In trusting you, please do not make fun of me or send me images of things I am afraid of because they do fear me a lot, so please.

1. Guy Fawkes Mask
I am terrified of the Guy Fawkes mask, even to the point where I cannot even watch the film, V for Vendetta. I do not know what about it scares me so muc, but I think it is the anonymous factor.

2. Richard Nixon Mask
Again, same reason with the Guy Fawkes mask.

3. Vomit
Bodily fluids freak me out, and when someone vomits, I vomit and cry because I just do not like vomit.

4. Fire Escape Stairs
The steps have holes in between them, which freaks me out.

5. Blackbirds
Despite the fact that I love the song by the Beatles, I am terrified of blackbirds, especially when they are flying towards me.

6. Clowns
A lot of people say that people who say that clowns are one of their fears are just trying to be cute. Once in California, a guy in L.A. dressed as a clown, decided to surprise me, which eventually made me run across the Hollywood Walk of Fame.

Hopefully, there is some explanation to these fears. I would appreciate it that no one sends me any photos or any videos, but an explanation will be granted.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Being Proper

To be honest with you, today is the first day that I had proper writing. In my opinion, proper writing just means that I am sitting at a desk, typing away. Lately, I have done idiotic and not so idiotic actions.

One of the idiotic actions I have committed is that I ran into a median on a main street road. It was unintentional, and I did not mean to do that at all. Siri, the lady on the GPS, decided to tell me to turn right way to soon and I ran into a median. Luckily, no one got hurt and no damage was done to the car. Thank goodness.

One of my other idiotic actions is that I went shopping and found items of clothing and bought them. You may think that is fine, but I cannot help but feel guilty when I spend money. I know that I deserve to have a couple of items for the warm weather, but I do not feel well when I spend money on myself. If it is another person, fine, yet I tend to be very cheap for myself.

One of the non-idiotic actions I committed is that my swearing has been an all time low, which is a habit I have been wanting to break for a while now, and I think I am on the right track. I did not want to quit swearing because other people told me to. I wanted to quit because I wanted to, which makes the entire process more fulfilling.

Other than the lessons I have learned, there are still little things that make life harder for me. For instance, I have trouble falling asleep. Last night, I went to bed at midnight and did not fall asleep until 2 in the morning. I hate that about myself.

Hopefully, I have the strength to keep pushing and to keep going because I know that my life is only going to be more complicated and will not be any smoother.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Normal to me is Different

I miss the days where I can go outside and not care. I miss it when I can go to the beach easily and just have an all out beach day. But, life keeps going. Time keeps ticking, and no one waits for anyone.

With love,
Violet Sar Bleu

Review on Brandy Melville

I know I have been talking about Brandy Melville nonstop, but it is because I love the store so much and that everything in the store is so adorable and cute and fits me so well. Instead of just raving about the store, I decide to give a review about it. However, I know that my opinion is only one of many. Therefore, if you have a different opinion or would like to add on to this post, go right ahead.

Pros:

1. The concept of "One Size Fits Most"
I love the concept of one size fits most because it makes it easier for me to shop. It sounds ridiculous, but most of the items of clothing fit me well. However, there are some things that are a it too big for me. For instance, the crop shirts and tank tops are not as cropped as I would like them to be. But, I like that it fits everyone differently, I do not have to rummage to find my size, and I can share my clothes with my friends without worrying if the size is right.

2. The price
It is affordable for what the clothing is. There are some things that are seriously expensive, but there are some things that are very affordable. For instance, most of the rings there are dirt cheap, but adorable. Most of them cost $3, which is pretty cheap.

3. The decor
I love the way the store is laid out, and it is so homey and pretty and I love it.

Cons:

1. The concept of "One Size Fits Most"
It works for tops, but not all of the bottoms. I wear a size 24/25 in bottoms and if I were to be curvier than a size large, I do not think I can fit most of the items. There is an elastic band, but sometimes, the elastic band does not go as far as much as people would like. Also, some of the sweaters, which I know are meant to fit loosely and to be draped, are pretty big on me. I mean humongous, so that is my problem.

Other people's thoughts I've heard

1. Problems with customer service
I am the type of person that prefers to salesperson to not try to interact with me because I like to be independent, but some of my friends who have been to Brandy Melville complained to me about customer service. Also, I went on a weekday, a less busy day compared to weekends, so that could have contributed to the customer service.

Those are my thoughts on the store, which I am so glad I got to experience. I am a Brandy addict now.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Kids and Stupid Things

Today, I went to my father's house. Although I love my father to the moon and back, there are certain things I can live without. I am not going to elaborate on those certain things because it is way too stupid to talk about. Yes, I said stupid. I know. Some of you will say, "Stupid things are stupid because we do not want to deal with." I say that is mostly the reason why I think those situations are stupid.

Hopefully, you will have a less hectic day than I have.

With love,
Violet Sar Bleu

Things to Remember

I guess when I am traveling or even when I am alone most of my time, I tend to forget things. It can be as miniscule as forgetting a toothbrush to actually forgetting to do something, such as making myself lunch. During the school year, I tend to not think about those things because they were automatic. My life was structured, but now, my life is not structured. Everyday is different. Everyday I can do anything I want. Even though it is what I have also wanted,  I just have to remember to do certain things that are meant to be automatic.

1. Do not forget to shower
Being at the beach all day and then coming home tired at 11:00 pm really takes a toll on you, and doing it everyday will not be beneficial. I almost forgot to shower the last two days as disgusting as it sounds and wound up taking a shower at 11:00 pm.

2. Do not forget to eat
Having too much fun makes us live in the moment and just think about that moment. Somehow, a moment of joy makes us forget our physical state of being. I do not even realize that I am hungry until I take a bite of something.

3. Do not forgo laundry
I live in bikinis and pajamas during the summer, and I am not ashamed of it. However, because of my large amounts of bikinis and pajamas, I forgo laundry, which I should not do.

These are the top three things that I forget to do on a daily basis. It sounds weird, but I do.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

My Bratty Personality

I am not going to stand here and say that I am not a bratty person. I am. However, those qualities do not show often and come out during some times. But, people usually do not say those things that I call bratty are actually not bratty. As the saying goes, no one sees everything correctly.

1. I will not eat something or finish something if I do not like it.
If I do not like something, I will not eat it. I feel horrible to say this statement because I know that people around the world do not have the food I have.

2. I will not wear something if I do not like it.
Again, I feel horrible because some people do not have things I have.

3. I am stubborn.

4. I have a more emotional appeal to things, and not intellectual.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Brandy Melville Update and End of School

I wished I did not have doubts about Brandy Melville's idea of one size fits most idea because I tried on a couple of Brandy shirts, and they fit perfectly. However, I did not buy the tops because I did not have enough money and because I went into Cotton On for the first time, and that is my explanation.

The best thing and most exciting thing if this school year is that Pacsun is selling Brandy items, since they only have locations in New York and L.A.

School is over for me.

With love,
Violet Sar Bleu

Brandy Melville

Upon walking around California about a year ago, I was too afraid to walk into Brandy Melville, and was nonetheless hesitate to buy things from there. Now, knowing that Brandy Melville clothing has reached to a mall near me, I really want to try out their clothing.

Since it is a one size fits all type of deal, I am afraid that their clothing will not fit me.

I need your advice,

With love,
Violet Sar Bleu

I feel uncomfortable

Whenever I feel uncomfortable, I tend to go away, just leave. It is not like I have butterflies in my stomach; it is more as if someone were to take a hold of the insides of my ribs and stretched them apart. That sensation does not hurt, but I do not feel like I belong. Most of the time, it is not out of  rudeness. I leave because I feel as though I do not belong.

With love,
Violet Sar Bleu

Sun care tips

Knowing myself, I will be out in the sun this summer, so I guess some of you are too. Therefore, despite the fact that I want you to have fun, we also have to keep it safe. This includes sun care.

1. Sunscreen
Put on sunscreen. Please, we do not want to get leathery skin when we grow up, nor do we want to have skin cancer. So please, wear sunscreen, it is good for your skin and body. Some of my favorites include Watermans and the Hawaiian Tropic brands, since they last so long.

2. Hydration
Ever heard of too much sun? This happens to me all the time, and I believe that I got too much sun at Lake Conroe. So, hydrate your skin after you have been in the sun all day. Drinking water will help. Also, I like to use the Hawaiian Tropic Silk Hydration After Sun Lotion after a long day in the sun.

3. Lip balm
Skip the lip gloss, and turn to your new friend lip balm. I got burned on my lips (which is not fun), so please wear lip balm because your lips might burn and it will peel.

4. Aloe Vera
Sunburns happen, so to help with the pain and heal faster, use aloe Vera. It will help with the sting and peeling.

Stay safe and have fun.

With love,
Violet Sar Bleu

It's all in you and me

Depending on what type of person you are and how you perceive things, you will look at situations different than I would, and that is perfectly perfect because agreements do not thrive perfection. Disagreements, that are constructive, make things perfect by ridding all of the jagged ends.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Things I just noticed

Coming back from Lake Conroe made me realize something, I live in my bikinis in the summer. I am not even kidding. I literally live in my bikinis, everyday all day. Why do say these things? It is because I have more bikinis more than underwear. That just shows how my life style is. But, I am not ashamed of it. From visiting Destin to going different beaches all around, I cannot help but notice that I live in my bikinis. I sound crazy, but in the summertime I literally do.

The reason why I have so many bikinis is because every year I get a new one, just to freshen everything up a bit. But, although I have grown taller, I have not grown that much wider. Therefore, my bathing suit size have not changed since the 6th grade, and to add onto that, I get swimwear as a birthday gift since it is during the summer.

I have no shame in saying all these things because it is true, and I cannot deny it.

With love,
Violet Sar Bleu

On a Getaway

I get to live in my bikini, tank tops, and cutoff shorts, and I cannot be any happier. This trip is just getting me so excited to go to Destin.

This post is just for us, just to see how am I doing.

With love,
Violet Sar Bleu

Weekend Trip

I am off to Lake Conroe this weekend, and I am super excited, even though the waves will be less that desirable there- I mean choppy waters, really- but all in all, I am so psyched.

I do not understand

In every school, no matter how great or seemingly "terrible," has white collar crimes. When I first heard this term, I have no idea what it meant and felt ignorant for asking my sister about, which in turn, of course, she knows about it. White collar crime, as defined by me, is when a person screws other people in order to be ahead, usually in an unfair way. You might probably think "I do not understand," "Life is unfair, get over it, kid," or "I know what you are talking about."

An example of white collar crime (in the most innocent way possible) is when a kid asks another kid to test out a bridge to see if it would break. The kid asking knows that the bridge will break, so the other kid ends up falling, while the original kid remains safe and continues on. I think that is a white collar crime, but I can be wrong. I think that is what it is.

Why do I bring this up? I have no idea. It came to my mind when I was finishing up my kaleidoscope picture, and I wonder why people do it. In my opinion, it takes more work to cheat, rather than learning and do the test on our own. I sound mean, but that is what I think. There is a group of students in my grade who are so competitive and obnoxious with school, and even though they consider themselves friends with one another, one of the insiders of the group told me that they do not even like each other and pretend to be each others' friends. I feel pity for them, not only do they have to put up with the thought of the other person being better, but also, they do not like each other. I feel lucky to have a group of people who surround me and support me and actually genuinely like me.

I want you to have great friends and a circle of people you can be proud to call your friends. A good friend can have fights with you because it is usually done out of good, never trying to bring you down. Trust me, no one should have to have fake friends.

Now, with fairness. People say that life is unfair and that is the way it has always been. Even though I know and accept the fact that life is unfair, why does have to be like that? We can make life fair if we wanted to. So, what is holding us back?

With love,
Violet Sar Bleu

Quincenera and Rube Goldberg

I have the most random stuff coming at me at one time. Tomorrow, I have to go and support my lovely friend at her quincenera, and I said have to, not because she is my friend, but because I bought a dress. I will go to the quincenera anyway.

Another thing that is weird is my Rube Goldberg project. Yep, the huge chain reaction. Of course, I will finish it soon.

Yeah, just wanted to update about my life. It is a really short post, but I have to do some school work and ready myself for future comings.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

I love Holden Caulfield

You will read the title and probably think that I am mental. When I told my friends and my teacher that Holden Caulfield is one of my favorite characters, they looked at me and questioned about my well being. Yes, they were that surprised. However, I know that I am mentally stable and I will tell you why I love Holden so much.

1. He is not the ideal coming-of-age character.
Most coming of age characters are the people we want to be or have a friend that is like that. For instance, who wouldn't want Scout Finch or Stephen Chbosky's Charlie as their friend? However, Holden Caulfield is not the type of person we would want to be friends with and is unlikeable. I am unlikeable, and so are you. Not everyone can be cookie cutter, and that is the reason why I love him so much. He is unlikeable like me, and the image of Holden to me reflects the way I see myself at times.

2. Holden does not get along people around him.
Yes, I get the idea that he is foul mouthed, but past that, no one will talk to him. When he tells the reader that he will ring someone, he does not call anyone because he knows that no one will pick up. It is like when a person looks through the contact screen of their phone and does not call. I am sure we all know how that feels like. Everyone has that little burden in their life, and Holden's inability to make people listen to him reflect about how most of us feel in a conversation.

3. Holden does not complain about losing his innocence.
Despite the fact that he comes off as a rude guy, in the end, he gets harmed. Whenever, he talks about the old times with Jane, where everything is innocent, he switches off to "you" when he is talking about himself. This happens when he speaks about checkers and holding hands and being innocent. It hurts him so much to speak about it that he cannot say that he experienced it himself, but a different person. It is almost like Holden is speaking about his life in an another person.

All in all, those are my reasons for loving Holden Caulfield. Even though many people hate him, I love him to pieces and continues to be one of my favorite characters.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

P.S. I have more reasons, but these are the top reasons why.

Myers-Briggs Type Indicator

I took the Myers-Briggs Type Indicator thingy, and I am an ISFP. If you do not know what is the Myers-Briggs Type Indicator, do not worry. I did know what that was before my sister forced me to take the test, which apparently mass my sister an ISFJ.

All of this system really does is to classify people into 16 different personality types by the way they focus their energy, the way they take in information, they way they make a decision, and the way they place themselves in the outside world.

What an ISFP means is that I am an introverted, sensing, feeling, and perceiving type of person.
My sister on the other hand is am ISFJ, which means that she is an introverted, sensing, feeling, and judging type of person.

For the first letter, you can be an I or an E. I for introverted and E for extroverted.
For the second letter, you can be an S or an N for sensing and intuition.
For the third letter, you can be an F or a T for feeling and thinking.
For the fourth letter, you can be a P or J for perceiving and judging.

Tell me what you are in the comments below by looking up the Myers-Briggs Indicator quiz. Also, Disclaimer: finding your type will take some time and we cannot really know what our true type is, so an online quiz will not be so accurate, but it will lead you to the right direction. It took me a long time to find my type, and I hope you have a fun journey.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Dress Shopping and Denim Distressing

Yesterday, I went out to eat with my mother and sister and eventually picked out a dress for my friend's quincenera (despite the fact that she is turning 16 and the quincenera should have been last year). It actually took my surprisingly quick when I was finding a dress and eventually came out with a pretty lightweight, high-low dress (yes, I have joined the bandwagon, kinda late, I know).

Today, I have to work on a Rub-Goldberg experiment (if I spelled it wrong, sorry) and right now, I am distressing a pair of high-waisted shorts, yay.

I know, boring blog, but anyway, I hate state mandated tests.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Manslaughter vs Murder (?)

I might sound very ignorant, but I do not understand the difference between manslaughter and murder.

What I believe what murder is:
I might be wrong, but I believe that murder has the intent of killing the person who is already dead. It is an intent and has a cooling off period before the actual killing, so therefore, it was intentional and not impulsive.

What I believe what manslaughter is:
I think it is when the person does not mean to kill someone, or that the intent is not to kill the person

Someone, please, explain.

I think J.D. Salinger and I will make fast friends.

For someone who is a heavy reader and tends to read a lot of coming of age novels such as The Catcher in the Rye, To Kill a Mockingbird, Bless Me, Ultima, Perks of Being a Wallflower, etc., I have come across many great novels and many not-so-great novels. Even though I am quite young to say what are my favorite novels and what are not, I still believe that I have an opinion.

I prefer more modern takes on the idea of "coming of age" because let's face it, the way children grew up during the Gothic time period is totally different from the way kids grow up now. It is just like trying to compare yourself to Jane Eyre; maybe, we can find some characteristics, but the life pattern is just so different.

I want to discuss three of my favorite coming of age novels, which are The Fault in Our Stars, Perks of Being a Wallflower, and The Catcher in the Rye. However, I do not really consider The Fault in Our Stars as a coming of age novel, but the character does experience some life changes. All of these three novels have made me cried, not going to lie. In the novels The Fault in Our Stars and Perks of Being a Wallflower, I cried because I fell in love with the characters. But, it comes to the point in the novel where either the character dies or the character gets hurt, and that is why I cried. Hazel, Augustus, and Charlie are not perfect human beings, but at one point or another, I kind of wanted them to be my friend. It sounds a bit sad, but it is true.

In the novel The Catcher in the Rye, Holden Caulfield is not the ideal protagonist. I believe that if we asked another author to put the character Holden Caulfield into another novel, that person may put him as the antagonist. He smokes, he drinks, he does all of those crazy things, but I feel empathy for him, not pity. I believe that J.D. Salinger is a genius for portraying Holden as a protagonist. Sure, there is alot of profanity in this novel, but I think without it, it would lose some of the special characteristics that make it such a perfect piece of writing (in my opinion). Not only that, but the book is effortless to read. It flows, unlike many that jump from one to the other (which makes a difficult for me to read). I cried because I could not figure Holden before and feel terrible because of that. Many people hate this novel, but I love it.

Here are some videos that reflect my opinions on the novels (though  not entirely)

The Fault in Our Stars Inspired Song
Awake My Soul by Mumford and Sons

Yes, today is a book day, hope you do not mind. What are thoughts on these three novels?

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

April Favorites

Since April has come to an end in order to make room for May, I decided to do, in order to remember the fabulous (and rainy) April I had by telling you some of my favorites for that month.

Beauty:
I am not the type of gal that likes to wear makeup because one: it is too humid to be wearing makeup where I live and it will melt off your face and two: it seems like a burden to me. However, I will give you some of my favorite beauty products I use under my face.

1. Neutrogena Sunblock
I wear sunblock everyday because my skin gets burned easily. This sunblock is not greasy whatsoever and it does not make my face look shiny.

2. Saltwater
I make my own saltwater with water and sea salt and spray just enough to cover my body with a light layer of mist and it makes my skin feel so soft.

3. PCA Dry Skin Bar
I do not have dry skin, but I do get lazy with moisturizing my face. This bar allows me to have enough moisture in my skin after I wash it that I do not need to moisturize. Also, it is very refreshing and cleans my face so well.

4. Forever Aloe and Jojoba Scrub
This is my favorite exflotiator because it takes off all of the crud off your face, but it is very gentle. I use it once a week in order to make my skin feel smooth and soft.

Fashion:
I am a comfort freak, but I still try to look my best. So, my clothing choices below are not only fashionable, but also comfy.

1. Muscle Tanks and Loose Tanks
I have been wearing my muscle tanks and loose tanks with bandeaus lately, and they are so comfortable and it makes my outfit look put together yet casual.

2. Cutoff Shorts
I love my denim cutoffs because they are comfortable and make my outfit look casual, but not to the point where I look too casual. And, they pretty much go with almost everything.

3. Loose Woven Shorts
These type of shorts are so comfortable and feel like I am wearing pajamas, yet they look so put together and come in different prints and colors and I love them.

4. Crop Tops
I wear crop tops, but not like the crazy ones, with my high waisted shorts. I do not like the tighter ones and prefer the boxxier cut ones because they are comfortable and on trend right now.

Music:

1. Zedd- Clarity
2. spookyghostboy- Firesticks
3. Whitley- More Than Life

Random:
1. Mint Oreos with Peanut Butter
2. Hershey's Kisses
3. Ice Cream

My Crazy Idea

Call me crazy, but I want to go and experience North Korea. It is one of the most isolated and secretive places on the entire planet. I know that the country is not the most idea vacation spot to say the least, but I just want to understand the country. Despite the fact that people tell me things about the country and about the people, I still feel a slight mystery to the country. For what is actually goes in that country.

What are your crazy ideas?

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Sleep Deprivation

Now, I will not rant about my teachers giving me too much work because half th problem is my procrastination. But, I will tell you how I went through my day.

I slept at 1:00 am last night and was exhausted. In the morning, I was a total zombie and every single little noise was amplified and irrated me. Nonetheless, I went though my first 3 classes just fine. By fourth period, I got irritable and started tearing up because how annoyed and tired I was. Pretty much just hit the wall.

Yep, but I straightened out in the end. I feel exhausted.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

My Apologies

I apologize for not posting all week long, and my only excuse is that I was busy. I had a hard time juggling my school work with everything else in my life, and I just could not function with the blog posting. Even though I enjoy writing posts just about anything. Sometimes, I need a break and take a step back and remember that I still have some parts of my sanity even though it is slowly getting away.

I do not want to complain about my life and how I think it is tough because I know it is boring to read about and that people have it worse than I do, so I do not want to sound like a piece of trash complaining about worthless things.

However, I do want to speak about something that has been bothering me at the back of my mind, which is my future. Despite my ideas that I will be fine in the future if I do my best in the present, I cannot help but think about. I have no idea what is going to happen to me, and it scares me. I do not want to think that, but I do. I have no direction in my life and I have no idea I want to do with my life, other than to help people. The quarter-life crisis, my friend.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

The way I feel right now

I feel as though I am not my normal self, and it is to the point where I do not understand myself if that makes any sense. I guess I should just tell you my problems.

I feel very unfocused and disconnected with myself and my life. Such as, I will think of something and I do not know how it applies to my life, though it seems relevant. It is almost as if I have all the pieces to a puzzle, but I cannot seem to put it together. Also, I feel very anxious for some weird reason. I am not a nervous person, but I am anxious for no reason. My body has been anxious as well, like jittery and cautious of everything that might move, if that makes sense at all.

I do not believe that I am stressed out, but I have been also getting acne, which I barely get, but right now, for some weird reason, I have been breaking out. Ughh, I do not know what to do, and I do not know why my body is doing this to me.

Why do I feel anxious? Why do I cry for no weird reason at weird times during the day? Why do I feel disconnected and unfocused? Why do I feel incomplete even though I have everything in front of me? Please answer these questions because I need the answers.

Please help.

Violet Sar Bleu

I Love You to the Moon and Back

Lately, I have been out of it. I cannot focus, I failed three things this week, and I am not myself. I have no idea why, and it is to the point where I just do not understand why I do things the way I do. I am fruststrated, and I hope that things will get better because it just has to. It has been a long time since I felt this way, and I do not like it. If you never had this feeling, great, and hopefully, you never do.

I literally slept at around 4:00 pm in the afternoon last night and woke up around 9:00 am, that just proves to you why I feel the way I do and I need to stop, it is unhealthy.

I am confused with myself. How did I let myself fail 3 things in a row? How did I let myself avoid the fact that I failed three things in a row? Ughh, I am so confused and frustrated.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

I think I need a break

I failed a test and a quiz, and my waterline of my eyes got torn. Just wanted to say that. I am so frustrated with myself, and eventually, I think I might self destruct in the most nonharmful and unintentially way possible.

I need to breathe, take a step back, maybe rid of my possessions for a while because I am losing my sanity. Please help.

This mental breakdown rarely happens, so please help. Ugh, I am so upset with myself right now, not sucicidal, but upset.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Fright

Ok, remember how people were talking about how North Korea will bomb the U.S. I have a feeling the whole world is going crazy. Did you hear about the explosions? I am scared to the point where it is worst than the time I looked up Fransico Goya's work.

List of crazy happenings as of right now.
1. Boston bombing
2. Pakistan earthquake
3. Waco explosion

If you could find any updates, please comment

With love,
Violet Sar Bleu

Ultimate Failure

My apologies to you for not writing that often, but the thing is that I cannot do well at things when I am overwhelmed. No, you are not my last priority, but you are not my first either. Trying to get things set for summer and Destin, schoolwork, and it was taking a toll on me.

Again, I have to keep it short, and I will see you all later.

Personality: Exaggerate, Mute, Change

I think sometimes the Internet allows many people's personality to be exaggerated, muted, or changed because people realize their true personality traits. However, if a person does that, he or she is very deceitful because that is lying.

You all know my personality traits and you probably do or do not like them because of your opinions are allowed. I cannot stop people from thinking they want to believe because if I do, I am being unfair. Even though I try to write posts in which they are interesting, they are more for me than anyone else because I write what I want to write, and if I try to please people, I will hate it. I do not hate writing posts, and I ask you all to give me ideas because to me it only seems fair if I grab ideas from you. Now, do not believe that I get all my ideas from you.

I do not want to address anyone as "Clouds," "Kiandreans," "Lawlorffs," "Mahomies," "Beliebers," etc. because I know that not everyone knows me well, not everyone enjoys my posts, therefore, I do not want to exclude anyone, which is what I want to avoid at all costs.

"Why are you addressing this?" You may or may not ask.

I address this because to me the most successful people do not exclude people, even on the Internet. Even though there may be "fandoms" (fan kingdoms), I really do prefer people to not have them,

I know two posts in one day; I just want to apologize for posting so late and give you two knowledgeable posts today.

With love,
Violet Sar Bleu

Advice to Future Students in AP Courses

I think this needs to be addressed because I see a lot of stupid things inside AP courses, and I want you to have at least a guideline of what to expect because life tends to be unpredictable.

1. You will meet ignorant people.
Taking AP courses does not mean we will be surrounded by knowledgeable people because there will always be that kid that thinks he or she knows everything, when it is obviously not true, and sometimes, it is the teacher. Trust me, I had an argument about Jeffreys Bay, which I was the wiser one out.

2. You will might not have an "A".
I think this one was the hardest one to grasp because I was used to making "A" on my tests, and probably the only one I get a legit "A" is English. Do not worry or panic, it is just a letter grade. It only matters if you learned are not.

3. Working with a freeloader is inevitable.
Whether we are the ones freeloading or the other person is, we are bound to work with them, and it can be minor or major. The most major experience I had was that I had to make a huge binder about The Catcher in the Rye and one of the girls decided not to do anything. Therefore, I did it.

4. You will probably hate your teacher sometime during the course.
Do not worry about this because it does not pertain to the teacher. Just breathe and you will get through it.

5. You will feel overwhelmed.
Teachers do not talk to each other surprisingly. I had a portrait, 2 tests, and a presentation about a poem in Spanish in which I had to analyze and talk about in Spanish all in one week. It is inconvient, and they need to talk.

6. Even though you are in an AP course, it does not mean that you should do everything yourself. Remember, you are still a kid, a teenager.
For some dumb reason, teachers believe that once we are in an AP course, we should be able to do everything ourselves. So not true. Trust me, do your work and you will be fine, but the teachers have to play their part to or it will not work out.

7. Listen.
It goes a long way. Just follow directions. If anything is not clear, ask the teacher. Do not be afraid to ask.

8. You will be sleep deprived.
It is bound to happen and I am still trying to catch up on my sleep during freshman year, which is not good considering how long has it been.

9. You will get disturbed.
I do not know about you, but there are a lot of obnoxious kids in my school. There is this one girl who I despise because she does not know how arrogant she is. There is also this other girl who believes that she knows everyone I know, which is not true. Trust me, you will dislike one of the students in your AP course.

10. Only do it if you want to.
Remember, this is a choice. I recommend it, but if you believe that this is not good, do not do it. No one can force you to.

With love,
Violet Sar Bleu

P.S. If you have any questions leave them in the comments below.

My Day

I have never really told anyone how I felt about my day, and I had a very eventful day today, so you are in luck :).

I woke up today at 6:00 am and left the house by 6:30 am in order to volunteer for Habitat for Humanity, and no, I did not do a build today, I just volunteered a sort of church bazaar.

The first couple of hours tested my physical strength, which I have none, but nonetheless, once the event started to happen, I was moved a bunch of times. First, my friend and I had to put up balloons onto tents, and I had to hold the balloons, which was the scarious job because I thought I might go up with a boys scout kid and an old man (comment reference, ;)) or I might lose them all. I had to hold them for my much taller friend to put them up (I am short). Next, I was moved to the registration area and had to give out fake hard hats to children and separate them and got a cut, which I could not get a bandage for, but I was fine. Finally, I was moved for the third time (and this only happened to me) to the bean bag toss which most of my friends were there and we had a great time just having fun and fooling around when no one else was there. It is good to be young sometimes.

By noon, and yes this all happened in the course of 5 hours, I had to go home because my shift was over. I loved this volunteering experience because it was fun and enjoyable. I did not have to deal with bratty kids if I did not want to, and my job was changing throughout the day, so I had fun.

I had some time to kill, so I went with my mom and my sister to go get some Arnold Palmer and chicken tenders from our favorite place. If you never tried Raising Canes or an Arnold Palmer or even together, please do because I do not want you to miss out. And if you did try it, please tell me your thoughts on it.

Next, after an eventful meal that consisted of a conversation about Rosie, the Beatles and why Paul McCartney is barefoot and not John Lennon on their album (comment reference ;)), and pointilism art, I had to get a haircut in order to get my layers redone. My layers have grown out, so my friend Ivy decided to recut them for me and they look amazing. Thanks Ivy.

All in all, that was my day, now I have to do some World History homework, which I procrastinated on, do not judge me because we all do it.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

P.S. What is your way of finding something that you lost?

Random Thoughts

I have a lot of things on my mind lately, and I need to get them out. Most of these things will not make sense whatsoever.

1. Unneeded noise such as slamming fake golfing sticks and slamming the jump rope against the floor and wall is not cute, it is annoying. The world, please stop.

2. Music is supposed have meaning. If it sounds like trash or has lyrics that mean nothing, it is trash.

3. I probably done something terrible in my past life because I have the worst karma.

4. I cannot find my hours sheet. I am like the opposite of an alchemist. Everything I touch turns to dust, instead of gold.

5. If you cannot sing, for god's sake please do not scream your voice at the top of your lungs. I am fine if you sing, but if you strain your voice, I might say something.

6. The top 5 thoughts are not towards the public, more like directed to one person, and she does not even read my blogs.

7. Dear lord, boys, it is gym, not the freakin Olympics.

8. Why is my face breaking out all the sudden?

9. I only like one radio station in my hometown, and I gave up on it. Now, I rely on Skipper Radio for my music.

10. I do not think society has just reached its all time low. When I was in kindergarten, my friend got "engaged" and "married", go figure.

Yep, some thoughts in my head right now, do not take anything seriously.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

"Look how stupid they will look inside the history books"- Sane People

I do not know about you, but whenever I am studying about seregration or oppression, I always look at the pictures on the history page and laugh at the people who are for the seregration and opppresion. Many people say that it is unkind, but be honest, we all do it.

Change is normal, sadly for most people, great for me. I like change because it allows us to grow.

Why am I stating all of this?

Gay marriage should be allowed. Yes, I believe that, and if you do not believe as so, you may comment some of these.

People Against Gay Marriage Comments

1. The reason to get married is to have children. A gay couple cannot produce children, so they should not be able to get married.
By that logic, an infertile woman or man should not be able to get married. That is all I have to say.

2. Same-sex marriage is against nature.
Nature involves complexity, and sometimes that involves the beauty of determining sexuality and gender. Every single animal has its own little quirk, this might be just be one of them.

3. Marriage is a religious. Therefore, since it is against of my religion to allow gay people to get married, it should be illegal.
There is a reason why religion and government do not mix. Marriage can be either religious or a government subject to deal with. Remember the "or", not "both", but "or". In the government, married people are allowed to have some benefits, so if you are against gay marriage, you are not allowing same-sex couples to have certain benefits.

4. The Bible
First, the Bible is not a federal document, so it should not be allowed to be part of the discussion. Not everyone is Christian, or whatever.

My Comments to Those Who are Against Gay Marriage

1. Not allowing gay marriage is religious oppresion.
Since marriage is based off of religion, not allowing someone to get married is religious oppresion.

2. A loving couple is a loving couple; it does not matter who is in a relationship.
A person's sexuality does not determine what type of person he or she is inside of a relationship. If a couple has a loving relationship, why they cannot get married?

3. Marriage is marriage. We should remove the labels.
Even though I used "gay marriage" throughout this post, I want to address marriage as marriage, that's it.

4. You do not have to get married to a person of the same gender if this law gets legalized.
This law does not make us a place where we only allow same-sex marriage (you will still be married to your spouse, do not worry), and you do not have to get married to a person who is of the same gender. Just be neutral about it.

5. Put yourself in their shoes.
What if someone told you cannot get married because of your sexuality? You would not think that it is fair, right? Exactly.

6. Many people have different preferences in their relationship situation.
Pretty much you are not allowing many people to get married, smooth.

7. Religion and government do not mix, so do not try to.

8. People in same-sex marriage are not the "devil" and do not say it is "Adam and Eve", and not "Adam and Steve".
To you all religious freaks out there, hopefully, you are satisfied :p.

9. Look how stupid you will look inside history books 20 years from now if you do not suppport it.
We look at pictures of people supporting seregration inside the 1960s and make fun. Look 40 years into the future, do you really want to see your picture and having a couple of teens making fun of it, no.

Yes, that is my rant for today. Hopefully, you enjoyed it. Also, what are some of your thoughts on same-sex marriage? Leave them in the comments below. Do you agree with me or not?

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

99th Post: Thoughts

I know many people usually celebrate the a significant amount of posts they have on their blog. For instance, they will state "100th post" or "10th post" or the most dreaded "1st post". Now, I decided to have fun with it and make the 99th post - technically, my 100th post, since I deleted my last one because it did not fully explained my day, forgive me. I cannot stand a lot of things, as many humans do, and most of the list of things have grown over the past couple of years.

Yep, one sin of society everyone commits, but denies, is hypocrisy. No matter who we are as a person, no matter how good we are, we still do things that we hate, and then critcize others for doing the same action they hate. That is committing hypocritcal action about hypocrisy. Awesome. However, everyone does, there is no denying it.

Another subject I feel strongly about is that religion, science, and government do not mix. Sorry, but no matter how much people work on it, it does not. So, the arguments over same-sex marriage and the thought of human deformations should not be included into the government. Therefore, in religious and scientific sense, avoiding the government is the best idea.

Dealing with people is difficult. I do not like dealing with people, and I am the worst person with social interaction. I may be wrong, but who knows? The famous quote that I will probably quote wrong and do not know where this comes from "Cars are not hard. It is people that you need a manual for". I cannot agree more because there is a certain way of interacting with people that does not involve the scolding of society. Complicated, but simply true.

Over the past couple of years of volunteering at various children events, I have noticed "the colorful and diverse relationships" between parents and children. They are not really that different, every single relationship follows a different stereotypes, whether good or bad. However, once in everyone's life time (unless you are not planning to have any kids or do not have anyone to take care of or do not have an authority figure over you), a person will treat his or her kids and his or her parents like trash. No need for argument there. It is the truth, and it is time that we all accept it.

All right, continue to have a great weekend and I will see you soon.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Goodness Gracious, My Grasshopper

Happy Friday, everyone. :) I apologize for not posting yesterday, but the thing is that I was way too tired to type anything out. And if I did, I will look like an uneducated sloth. Yes, and that will be an insult to sloth. Let's just say, I was not myself yesterday and could not function whatsoever. So, again, my apologies to you.

I just want to say something. I do not know if my wording will make it sound mean, kind, or just awkward, but I will try to do my best to say this thought in the best way possible.

I do not get why people will do the darnest things to get me upset. I do not get it. Some people will just make me mad, and even though I try not to be an angry person, I cannot help the frustration I feel.

For instance, this one time I was sitting by myself, just trying to draw a picture of an eye during lunch. Of course, I had a different lunch that day because of testing, therefore, none of my friends were there, which I was fine with. However, many people-I think they felt bad for me- decided to invite me to their table. You are probably thinking "Ok, what is the problem with that?" I do not know about you, but in my school, we do not have cliques. No jocks, cheerleaders, Valley Girls, stoners, just many people grouped together. Now, I have a very diverse school, so the grouping are as followed: the prepsters, the people with bad grammar (you know what I am talking about, those people always sagging their pants and acting like they own the school), and the people like me. The people like me are the loners/left-overs, pretty much the people who do not bother with social stuff unless they have to. Yeah, so the preps decided to invite me to lunch. Nonetheless, during the entire time I was there, I just wanted to finish my art.

Hopefully, you are happy. I want you to be happy, so be happy. Ok, good. :)

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

P.S. Speaking in a different language does not make me deaf, I still hear your tone of voice. And sometimes, I understand.

Plans for the Future

Despite my beliefs that we should not worry about the future, I decided to give you all a heads up on what will happen and what I have been thinking about doing in the future because I think that it is time to let you all know what I will do.

What will Happen:

- I will be in Destin, Florida for the majority of my summer. Therefore, I will either make more posts or make less posts depending on the situation.
- My posts on literature will increase, so yay for you, bookworms.
- I will post pictures, but not with me in it, depending on my comfort level.
- I will give more music references and what I think we should listen to you all.

What might Happen

- I might visit Anaheim, California to go visit some friends and might go to VidCon, depending on my financial situation.
- I might start vlogs about my life and post it, who knows where. I will notify you if I do.
- I might start to do apprenticeship at a company. Again, I will notify you.
- I might stop posting on this blog and my other one because life might just get to crazy. Of course, I will give you a notice about it.

So yes, those are my thoughts about the near future. None of these things are anything about the distant future, so do not fear.

What your plans for the future?

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

The Tale of Rasputin

Hopefully, you know the famous story about Rasputin's death because it is quite a story, even I cannot explain its para normality. I think it is bizarre, however, I think his life story was strange. He was a weird guy to tell you the truth. I would not say that he had connections with the higher being, but he was a strange guy.

Otherwise, I decided to give you all a beautiful history thingy about Rasputin, but I bagged the idea. Look him up. Trust me, you will wonder if these are actually true or not.

Quarter-Life Crisis

I want to get a degree in Psychology and Anthropology, travel around the world, be a people-watcher, use my observations and my studies, and eventually, write a novel. After I write my novel, I want to teach Psychology and Anthropology. Yes, that is my direction right now, my mother thinks it is crazy, but at least, I have a direction now. This dream of mine is not at all at impulse. I have been thinking about doing it for so long that I started to doubt myself about it. It's better than my wanting to try to make money off of being a literary crticism writer in which high school students have to use my argument in order to either make a counterargument off of or use it in order to support their own argument. Either way, that was the most ridiculous thinking I could have ever thought of.

I know what I can do well and vice versa. I can observe people and think of ways to either develop a certain theory of them and how they process.

Over the years, I have noticed that my presence do not really influence people on its own, but with my voice, people listen to the thoughts I have. I do not know why, but I think that getting a degree in Psychology and Anthropology, writing a novel, and eventually become a teacher is my direction in life. Even though I am not helping humanity as a whole, I think that at least I am able to do something with my life.

I have been looking at other blogs, vlogs, videos, and articles, and they are mostly written or done by people who are going through a quarter-life crisis.

You are probably wondering, "What is the quarter-life crisis?". The quarter-life crisis, as I define it, happens to people in between the ages of 16 to 25, take or add a couple of years. Usually, we end our schooling, but we have no direction. We do not know what we will do with out lives. It is similar to the mid-life crisis except by the age of 40-50, again take or add a couple of years, we are already doing what we are suppose to do, and we have no excuse except that we are bored. However, the quarter-life crisis involves choices that may or may not influence our future.

We are indecisive people, and we have no direction because we are afraid sometimes, or just confused. I think the latter because I see many people with this condition. It cannot be cured, only coped and eventually, we will get out of it. If you want to see examples of people in the quarter-life crisis, look at YouTube vlogs, blogs, and other things.

Hopefully, you are not in the quarter-life crisis and have direction. If you are, it is ok, the future will work out itself. We will get it through together.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Book Plague

Have you ever read a book that affected you so much that it causes you to be mentally sick for a while because of the many emotional changes you go through as you read that book? Have you ever just wanted to be alone for 4 weeks in order to persay "recover" after you read a book that you love and now ended?

I have. I have read many great writings in my day (and not so great ones), but nonetheless, the ones that I cherish tend to be the ones that cause me to a nonsocial person just for the fact that I need to recover. However, I do not believe that we ever recover from those book plagues. I think that we just learn to live with the condition they give us and try to be that person that we were once were. But, some people in our lives leave because they cannot stand our mental being anymore, or they leave because we push them away, since some can only do harm to us after the book.

I know. It sounds cliche to change after a book. But after a very influential and great book, I cannot help but think, "All this time in my life, I have lived without this book. How? How do I live without its influences over me again?"

People left my life because of certain ways of making them leave. There is the classic "I am not feeling well. You are better off going some place else," and there is the contemporary "Leave me be,".

So this is my warning to you. Whenever you read any book I suggest, you may get "book plague". I get it, and it will be different for all of us. I just laid in bed for 4 weeks, ate a bunch of cereal, and listened to Billy Joel and The Smiths. I get it severely, but my sister, not so much. She just lays out on the grass on those sunny days on our front lawns, and she did that for 5 days. My mother just locks herself into her room with her coconut meat, and she will occasionally allows us to visit her throughout the day. "Book plague" is different for everyone.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

P.S. What are some books or plays or poems that affected your life? Also, I have been wondering, who is the other of the poem, Howl? I cannot seem to find the author, but the poem is saved onto my hard drive.

List of Videos to Cheer You Up

Everyone knows that Easter is just around the corner, and I know some of you are in a bad mood. So,  I decided to give links to videos I watch in order to cheer myself up and to prevent bad vibes going around me. These videos usually consists of my favorite YouTubers. Therefore, I do not mean any offense to anyone, nor do they, so please, if you do not like the videos, it is ok. Just do not send hate. Argue with me instead.

Beware: Some swearing might happen, but mostly they are censored.

1. Boy Impersonates Teen Girl:
 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zgF7nxoXRJU&list=UUobV_oWSV4-YgbYnqrkaX9w
This video makes me laugh nonstop because it is so funny and overexaggerated, and I laugh my sanity off because of it. Of course, this video does not mean any harm to anyone. It is all in good fun.

2. Australian Boy Does Accents
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZTIH8FrqQyM
The reason why I think this is so funny is because some of accents are actually very well done. I know that some people my take this offensively, but again, no harm is meant to be done. The phrases he says are hilarious.

3. Bug War
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=az4LD1Z_DOw
The idea of karma of bugs and the description of the bugs taking over is hilarious. I do not know what about it makes it so funny to me.

4. Confessions of a Disney Employee
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f_WaxuN4o78&list=PL50E2211EBC39DC15&index=7
Swoozie never fails to make me smile, and this video is such a classic to me. It makes me laugh so hard. I know that it is wrong to laugh at others' misery, but misery loves company.

5. The Panic Alarm
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F99LYU8dVSE&list=UUGjylN-4QCpn8XJ1uY-UOgA&index=2
Nothing serious at all, just some guy who talks about his life's failures and turn out to be the most hilarious thing.

6. Left Handedism
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZiWSWG7926I&list=UUGjylN-4QCpn8XJ1uY-UOgA
Who knew being left handed makes people so disabled? Again, nothing serious, just some guy who talks about his experiences about being left handed.

7. List of reasons why I am an awful human being
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fPcXf4ilZbQ
Again, story time. Almost like anecdotes, but funny nevertheless.

8. Why I'm bad at conversations?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qQNlaM027qk
An awkward guy who is adorable talking about his experiences that have not been successful with conversations.

9. Whenever you're sad
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bsQ693BCuFw
This is directly towards you if you are sad, but it is makes me smile whenever I am down. It is not that funny, but it is the voice you want to hear.

10. 46 reasons to exist
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uZD5y5evuc0
Again, this is for whenever you do not feel as though you belong or have nothing to live for. These are the few reasons why to exist.

I just want all of you to be happy. However, knowing the human race for a little under 16 years, I am kind of an expert, so I know we all get sad at least one point of our lives, unless you are super lucky and get to be happy everyday. I know these videos will not cure you or anything, but they will cheer you up hopefully. Feel better.

With love,
Violet Sar Bleu

P.S. I know that some of you are not upset, which is perfect since I do not want you to be upset. However, everyone deserves a good laugh every now and then. You can either ignore all of those videos or watch them anyway, since they do bring your beautiful smile to your face.