To be honest with you, today is the first day that I had proper writing. In my opinion, proper writing just means that I am sitting at a desk, typing away. Lately, I have done idiotic and not so idiotic actions.
One of the idiotic actions I have committed is that I ran into a median on a main street road. It was unintentional, and I did not mean to do that at all. Siri, the lady on the GPS, decided to tell me to turn right way to soon and I ran into a median. Luckily, no one got hurt and no damage was done to the car. Thank goodness.
One of my other idiotic actions is that I went shopping and found items of clothing and bought them. You may think that is fine, but I cannot help but feel guilty when I spend money. I know that I deserve to have a couple of items for the warm weather, but I do not feel well when I spend money on myself. If it is another person, fine, yet I tend to be very cheap for myself.
One of the non-idiotic actions I committed is that my swearing has been an all time low, which is a habit I have been wanting to break for a while now, and I think I am on the right track. I did not want to quit swearing because other people told me to. I wanted to quit because I wanted to, which makes the entire process more fulfilling.
Other than the lessons I have learned, there are still little things that make life harder for me. For instance, I have trouble falling asleep. Last night, I went to bed at midnight and did not fall asleep until 2 in the morning. I hate that about myself.
Hopefully, I have the strength to keep pushing and to keep going because I know that my life is only going to be more complicated and will not be any smoother.
With love,
Violet Sar Bleu
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