Terry Prachett: Choosing to Die

In the documentary Terry Prachett: Choosing to Die, a fantasy author, Terry Prachett, thinks about assisted suicide. Many people are against assisted suicide because they believe that it is not the way to die. He visits two men, Andrew and Peter, who do die and die in Dignitas. The reason behind Terry Prachett may want to die is because of the idea of pain when thinking about his Alzheimer's. Everyone should live happily and die happily.

The film is upsetting because the viewer knows that both men die and die out of chose. I tell you about this film is because I believe that if someone goes through immense pain and torture, he or she should be allowed to make the chose to die to end the amount of pain.

I know that many people are against it, and I know that the film is biased towards assisted suicide or euthanasia. However, please consider it nonetheless and watch the film if you choose to.

Best wishes to you, and I want you to live a happy life.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Am I happy?

One of the many questions people ask me in real life is " are you happy?" I tend to say whatever is on my head, regret it, and try to move pass from it because I want to be happy. Growing up, you can call me a basket case. I had trust issues, did not want anything to do with some people, and left any situation that I did not want to be a part of. A large part of me is still like that.

No, I am not happy. I am lonely even though I see people everyday. I need to fix this part of myself because I do not like to be a lone wolf.

Neglect and reject. I hate those two words.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Thoughts on Christianity

I am not a religious person, nor do I believe I ever was because I question way too often. Many of you will argue to me about this thought, since it is very controversial, but hear me out.

The concept of hell. I never understood the idea of hell because in Christianity, hell is a literal place. People are tortured for eternity, forever because they are a sinner and do not confess, have never heard or believe Christianity. People who have never heard of the story of Jesus Christ are tortured forever, including babies and people in other countries. People who are naive are tortured forever. Also, some of the things people get condemned for are natural, such as jealousy and greediness. How can someone allow people be tortured forever? At least on Earth, if someone gets tortured, there is an end to it.

The concept of fear. If you believe in something out of fear, it is not genuine. I do not get why people put themselves in this position for fear if they do not have too.

I think those two points have always been making me question. I should not question.
I should believe, but I do.

Best of wishes.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Why I am starting to dislike a part of YouTube

I cannot write off the whole website because there are channels where there are thoughtful and intelligent, and I like the thought that people can get entertainment directly from the creator. However, I dislike many things about the website, mainly of the idea of money, content, and certain other things.

1. People create things for the thought of fame.
You see those comments on your favorite YouTube websites that say "check out my channel" and "help a person with a dream," and I dislike those comments greatly because a person uses another person's audience to get his or her own audience. Why take someone else's hard work in order to make your work load lighter?

2. The idea that you have to be a certain way or your content have to be a certain way
Apparently, on YouTube, you have to be witty. You have to be smart, funny, charming, etc. I say bull crap to that, and YouTube should be a place where you can share whatever you want to share and have people interact with you, not criticizing you, yourself. YouTube is for everyone, not just for a specific personality.

3. Big Youtubers help big Youtubers
Why help someone when they are better off? Seriously. Why not they help smaller youtubers in order to share their ideas? I do not get it.

4. The idea that it is an industry
People start on YouTube at first for the fact that they were bored. Now, everyone wants more subscribers. The more subscribers you have does not mean the more rich is your content. The quality of the content relies on the opinion on the viewer.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Without Money We'd All Be Rich

To be honest with you, I hate talking about money because it bores me and stresses me about something that is not important to me. I know that money is used to pat back objects, services, etc., but people have become so greedy and infatuated with it to the point where'd I want to pull my hair out.

Yes, I do believe that without money we'd all be rich. Everyone will be equal. Social classes will not matter, and everyone will pursue whatever they want to.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

School Started

Today was the first day of my junior year for me, and I am in a weird mindset because of all of the odd classes I am taking such as Art History, Biology II, English III, Human Geography, Pyschology, etc.

Hopefully, I will blend in my classes pretty soon, since I feel like an odd ball out and a loner.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Disturbing things

I apologize for being inconsistent. Yes, I know that I have not written in a while, but I want to give you a reason why behind my apology.

My life, like yours, is inconsistent. I got sick, and had to reminded myself of who is my friend and who is not, which in turn, made me become distant. Other than this blog, I have not been in touch with a social media network (well, except YouTube).

I have other problems too, but I do not want to say just for the sake that I want you to have happy thoughts and not pondering about others. Think happily, for me.

Yes, I know this post is choppy, but when my thoughts run a mile a minute, I cannot help it.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

I woke up with a bad mood

Today, I woke up with a bad mood, and everything is annoying me right now. I do not know why. I have not been irritable in a long time. I need to fix it.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Those nights

I have those nights where I end up eating peanut butter out of the jar for dinner then I have a handful of blueberries and call it a night. Yes, those nights.

I have those days where I forget to eat dinner and end up hungry for the rest of the night. Yes, those days.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

I am so lonely

Before I begin, I would like to put a disclaimer out there. I know there are people in worse conditions than I am and that I live a privileged life. It is a blessing to be able to wake up and know that there will be food on the table, love from my cousin, sister, mother, and grandma, and that I will be fine in the end, no matter the injury, sickness, or heartbreak. However, like most people in our lives, I find myself a bit unsatisfied.

I have talked about my father before, and I believe that I made you listen to my rants about him far too often. I will not make you listen to them because they are horrendous. Don't you worry.

I have talked about my sister before, and I made you listen to my adoration and confusion for her far too often. I hope you have a best friend like mine because then life will be too unfair. You deserve to be happy.

I have talked about my loving and strict mother before, and I made you listen to my misunderstanding of her far too often. I hope you have someone to care for you because you take care of someone, but someone needs to take care of you. You deserve the best.

I do not remember talking about my grandma, and I need to tell you how wonderful she is. I want you to meet her one day. See you in due time.

Even though I have wonderful people in my life, I feel lonely and empty. For that I feel horrible because I have enough. I hope you have more than enough love to go around.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Apples to Apples, Honesty to Honesty

If you treat people right, people might not treat you right back, but you have the satisfaction of knowing that you treat people with respect. The satisfaction may be minuscule or significant, depending on how you are, not saying you are a bad person. Some people get satisfied by gifts, words of affirmation, acts of service, or touch. It really depends on how we are, and we cannot always expect that we will have full happiness. But, I want nothing but happiness for you.

Be honest, because the afternath of a lie will harm much more. Some people do not want to know the harsh truth. We need to tell them still. You will not always be happy in your life. But, we need the sky to be dark in order for the stars to light up the sky.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Always Again USA and Brandy Melville USA

I am a lazy shopper and do not like to look for the right size. It takes time, and that is the reason why I enjoy shopping at Brandy Melville and Always Again. We just have to be smart about what we buy, so I decided to give you a guide on Brandy Melville and Always Again.

At Brandy Melville, everything is one size fits most except for certain items such as her denim shorts and some of her pants. Her tank tops, mostly the graphic ones, do stay true to one size fits most. I have seen thin girls rock them along with curvier girls. Her short sleeve crop shirts are similar to the  baby tees back in the 90s, but they fit well and only work on certain body types. I have seen look unflattering on both thin and curvy girls, so it really comes down to how it looks on you. Her dresses are on the shorter side, along with some of the skirts. Luma skirts are on the shorter side while the Heather skirt are on the longer side. Sweaters are oversized, so a lot of people do fit into them. Maxi skirts are glorious, along with pants with elastic, since they do fit and flatter both thin and curvy girls.

Always Again has sizes on their crop tanks and crop tee shirts, but her muscle tanks do not have the regular small, medium, and large. The muscle tanks are one size fits most and one size fits bigger than most. So, if you are a thin girl to average, I recommend the one size fits most, but if you are on the curvier side, I recommend the one size fits bigger than mosts. Also, I like the idea of the option cropped and super cropped.

Always Again is an online store at alwaysagainusa.com while Brandy Melville has locations in Europe, California, and New York, it also has an online site at brandymelvilleusa.com.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu