Growing Pains

I miss my friend. I do not know why. I know how we drifted apart and it is my fault, entirely. I pushed that person away because that person came too close too soon. I miss my friend to the moon and back.

I had a root canal today. To be honest, the only that harmed me was when the x-ray that was rooked after.

What Sucks

My friend who I trusted through and through has not talked to me. He will not talk to me and forgot my birthday as well. It sucks. I am sorry that we had a misunderstanding. I am sorry that I am not the girl that you "knew was the one" by looking at her. I am sorry that I was mad at you for months, with you not knowing the reason why.

I am heartbroken that I lost my real first friend that felt comfortable enough to contact me at two in the morning to see if I came home from the party and if I was safe. I miss him so much as my friend.

Movie recommendation: Silver Road, short film, can be accessed through YouTube

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

I am Stupid

I have this friend, and yes, he is a guy, and yes, I care for him platonically. The relationship between he and me is complicated. It started out complicated, went through with complications, and still is complicated. However, we are on good terms, well in my point of view.

I just want him to talk to me. He is not talking to me, which makes me frustrated.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Happy Birthday to Me and Amy and Andy Irons

Today is my sixteenth birthday, and I woke up to the munchkins, Amy and Stephanie, sitting on Amy's bed waiting for me to wake up. I woke up at 10:30, which typically is too early for me. Gummy Bears that were bought from last night are on my dresser, and I received a lovely tank top from Stephanie. So far my day has been uneventful, but calm and simple. I am not dragged to a party I do not want to go. I am not forced to wear something nice. My day has been normal, except for the fact that I turned sixteen.

Today is Andy Iron's birthday. I wish him to a nice day, even if he is not considered alive anymore, but he is alive to me. He is forever young. Love you <3.

Happy birthday, Amy. Love you to the moon and back and back again <3.


With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Today

Today, technically yesterday, is the first day that I have experienced a great lost of trust and security. People keep texting me that they are sorry. I literally packed my things and was ready to head out, but my grandmother stopped. I rather not say anymore because I know I will regret it.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

I have a knack for embarrassing myself.

Yesterday, I went driving with my mother, and I got mad. I rather not say anything about it.

During the time we went, we decided to get some boba or bubble tea. Let's just say I did not noticed what I was wearing until I went out. I was wearing a baggy t-shirt and a pair of white sleep shorts with red polka dots. I am surprised they served me. Thank goodness, the guy was very nice, and gave me my green tea with grass jelly.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Wisdom Teeth

Wisdom teeth extraction is probably the most painful thing to endure, afterwards. I want to tell you what they did to me during the procedure.

When I got my wisdom teeth taken out, my dentist did not use gas on me. Instead, he used the needle annethesia. I am not going to lie to you, but the first injection was such a harsh and sharp pain. But the other two after were not as bad because of the already numbness inside the back of my teeth. During the operation, I was awake and blindfolded and did feel a thing. Then after all of the clacking and banging stopped, my blindfold was removed as they placed stitches on my mouth. I felt some pain with gauzes in my mouth. I was fourteen, and the pressure was too much.

I took my pain killers, which were too strong, and knocked me out. I slept for most of the day. Blood was dribbling down my mouth, and I got blood all over my pillow.

I healed quickly, and please do not try to eat chips after the operation. I did, and it hurt. The pain went away after a day or two, but still felt sore in my jaw for a while.

With love,
Violet Sar Bleu